Hoping...

I hope you miss me.

And you find yourself wondering

If I'm better off and happier,

because I am.

I know that you still watch for me,

and see who and what I've been around.

Just know that I'm better than ever

without you now.

I hope to be your biggest regret-

The girl you should've fought for,

The one you should've tried to keep.

And I should've put my foot down sooner,

and cut off your extra stress.

I was hoping that you'd turn around

and say you like me best.

Or even just enough to stay,

But just like the fading day,

Time and time again you ran away.

I was fighting for you to fight for me,

all of which in vain.

But now I can realize

that even though I do love you still,

I can say you're not best for me,

and maybe never will.

I do still hope you see the sunshine,

and live many many more days.

But your love still haunts me,

Every waking day.

Our love so bright,

burned me alive-

Compassion consuming me away.

I didn't want to say goodbye

but our love was awry,

And the one-way-faucet that flowed,

Ran and depleted me dry.

dh.

10.12.22